Seeing Grey clouds? what lies behind them?

The morning arrives, and you slowly open your eyes. You instantly and instinctively take a quick scan of your reality to see if it was just a dream or are you really waking upto the nightmare you call your life. Instant disappointment when you realise you have to do it all again another time. Enveloped in the anxiety of the routine of negativity. This all in a split second. imagine how many more seconds are left in the day. The heaviness on your shoulders, it’s like a grey cloud surrounding you.


This is how many of us are waking up, in the midst of a storm of chaos. Heaviness and lost hearts. Just because it feels so heavy does not mean there are so many layers. If you realise that this is just one layer of darkness!  What if you took a closer look at what seems so skin tight to your life? It’s as if you look out your window from a distance and you can only see on the dependence of what you allow yourself to see. What if you got closer to the window and prodded your head out there a little. You would have a much larger and insightful perspective on what you see. again, seeing only what you allow yourself to see.

How do we look beyond the dark layer? Turn on the light! How do you do that? Give yourself permission to love yourself a little. THERE IS ALWAYS MORE than what we perceive. For those asking what more is there? There is more. Therefore when you find yourself in the midst of a deep depression , just remember that there is more. Don’t lack the love and  allow yourself to miss out on what else you are entitled to have. Heartbroken? love yourself enough to move on and know there is more and you deserve it. You deserbe it because you made it this far, theres no stopping now, the world will not stop and wait for you. It will keep spinning. Don’t miss out on the rotation. We wish we could have the ability to remote view our life. Well you can. Take a break and  look at your life through a higher perspective, with less harsh eyes. From here you can guide yourself, your higher self. Just look beyond. There is light just beyond that cloud, and the light never hides, the despair fogs up the light. Always there, just remove the veil! 🙂 a  little reminder.



Tarot Card of the Day



Queen of wands – court card




The card pulled today was the queen of wands. This card may be asking us to embody and take on the energies of this fire element queen. The queen of wands is a determined, ambitious and natural leader. She may feel invincible at times when in her element and once she gets the ball rolling she keeps on going. She is a go- getter with an undeniable strength. The card I hold depicts a queen on her thrown holding her wand in power, she holds onto the wand rather loosely as she knows the power that she claims is hers and she will not allow anyone to take away from her in which  she knows is her own earned strength and power. She is bearing in the other hand a beautiful sunflower which is  a symbol of light, positivity and abundance. Sunflowers always search for the light and will physically turn to the sun no matter what direction they face. We too should always look for the light in a situation, and if you don’t see it, rest assured that if you search you will find it. She has green plants surrounding her symbolising the reaping of  benefits from hard work and determination. If you embody this energy, you too will be abundant. The sky is blue showing happy times. A black cat is sitting by her, facing outward  mysteriously, The cat to me , personally symbolises the dark and shadow side of the queen, rather the hardships and low points she endured to get to where she is now. The cat does not face her, it is looking outward with her as to show her won battles and surrender of the darkness to allow her light in The queen of wands is a woman who seeks everything good and bountiful. When she is searching for love, this is a positive card that you have worked up to meeting a new soulmate or companion. Financially this card is abundant and fruitful and you will soon see the result of your hard work. Soulfully when seeking answers this card shows that you will soon reach higher levels in understanding. She is also in good health and is a very fertile woman.  The queen of wands reminds us to keep up the hard work and be determined to reach our goal because success is ours. Embody this energy!

To double – cross

To double-cross is to sign away,

your every promise,

In every way.


To betray a friend is a wave of right,

To every trust,

In every sight.


To make it known, your lack of care,

Is to strip a heart,

And leave it bare.


When you then feel they’ve drifted afar,

They will just seem like,

A distant star.



Next time you wonder and question why,

That person has left,

Cause’ you made them cry.

Tarot card of the day



Card of the day is –

4 of pentacles (minor arcana)pents04

To start off, the immediate word  is possessiveness, and this does not so much have to be about materialism. Although generally the figure in the card is holding on tight to his riches. He has pentacles under his feet. This card praises and gives recognition to hard work you have put in to your financial life. It asks you to not fear losing what you have worked for and release the control and fear regarding loss. Release the grip a little bit and you will feel more relief. Ground yourself and remove fear, as fear creates blocks and barriers.

Possessiveness comes in many forms,  people, materialism, ideas, situations, mentalities, and so on.  Maybe you are holding onto control of a situation. What is it that you are afraid to lose control of? Are you holding onto your protective barriers? Your pride? Your old way of thinking? The past? your status? The relief will come when you let go. Maybe you need to let go of the illusion that you need to control every detail, or that you have to overpower to get across. The figure on the card is on the defence. Are you having trouble with trust? Maybe you are not trusting that the immediate future will have your best outcome. Maybe you don’t trust others with your possessions. Are you facing financial decisions that require risk?  Are you trying to control your  emotional pain externally  to control how you feel ? Unhealthy behaviour that harms our bodies, such as drinking and overindulgence. let go and let it pass. Don’t hold onto fear, it only generates more and you will find yourself in a vicious cycle. Focusing on your defence will not leave room for much else. This card may also ask you to find value in the non- materialistic dynamic, Such as the little moments in life, family, friends, experiences and hidden blessings. Being controlling or possessive of materialism will tire you and you are better off projecting your energy into more wholesome experiences. When it comes to daunting and new experiences , release the control and let the universe unfold what it will.

Are you holding onto the past? It’s time to look forward and release the anchor, new chapters are on the horizon!

Often when we try to hold control of a situation we may find ourselves trying to control others in the process. Or even just controlling others for fear of losing them.  Just let go of that energy my friends. You are allowed to relax a little!

Releasing the Anchor



Prodding and pushing,

I feel my heart rip,

I left it exposed,

now I have nothing to grip.


Community and family,

they say are the base,

they keep you together,

but I cant keep a straight face.


Independence vs support,

I have little of both,

not knowing what is true,

keeps my vision distort.


Behind all the taunting,

what lies beneath?

what are the intentions?

where is the relief?


If light does not surface,

I’ll have to go,

am I just delusional?

how can I know?


Are you for or against me?

do you wish me the best?

do you care how I’m feeling?

I’m rebuking this test!


I’m looking for “clean”,

I’m looking for light,

I’m searching for  peace,

I’m not looking for fights.


My anger is a hypocrite,

I want to let go,

of past hurts and bruises,

that sink me so low.


Release the anchor,

release the past,

no more carrying people,

no more finishing last.






Card of the day- 22/may/17 – The Hermit

Today I have pulled a tarot card, for a general collective guidance for viewers.



The Hermit ( Major Arcana)


Evidently some heavy energy has been present. The Hermit asks us to find all the answers and sought out clarity inward. Look inside and use your intuition to feel your way through this period. We can make ourselves crazy on trying to make a decision  or gain understanding. Spend some time with yourself where your judgement is  not clouded by others opinions. You have everything you need to find your way through. You may have so many energies directed at you during this time but  stay grounded and connected within. Be aligned with your heart. Seek and act  to align your heart with the  external goals and dreams you have in your life. You may find yourself in a relationship that may be suffocating or intense to the point where you have lost some sense of direction or self, or you at feel like you are trying to please everyone and not looking at your own needs. Retreat and take time to replenish your focus and inner well-being. If you are in a work situation where you are caught In between unethical situations , remove yourself from the negativity and know your intentions. If faced with moral dilemma’s, ground yourself and take a break.  You may find yourself in a state of spiritual searching during this time and as a result may attract certain lessons and people into your life. The Hermit asks you to take some time to process your mind, heart and focus. All in all, take some time alone to replenish. You may feel the need to spend some time alone, this is for a reason. This is a strong pulling energy. We should listen to what we feel, it always indicates a need that requires attention, Whether it’s health wise, or inner- well being.


Many Trains

Destiny is like a trip, with many stops and starts,

With many red, and green lights,

Speeding through like darts.


Opportunities await me, they seek to pull me in,

I sought to find what’s truly mine,

Lost time pricks like a pin.


Poking me and calling, what will your choice be?

To take this offer or let it go,

Is this truly good for me?


Extensive analysing, where will this take me?

Standing at the station,

But there are many trains I see.


No need to fear,  for many doors are open

No guilt for letting go,

Of what had made you broken.


When they say the train has passed, It doesn’t mean a lack

Of opportunities and chances,

The universe has your back.


Stand tall at your station, and watch the trains come through,

We are forever given life lines,

Green lights with guiding signs too.


Where do the dreamers reside?

Where on earth do the dreamers reside?

I look out my window , it is the routines that they abide?

Suits and ties, tones of black and grey,

Where do they reside, what do they say?

Scattered expressions and rushed walks,

Is this what they chose when their road was forked?

Where do the dreamers reside?

is it in self made paradises they hide?

I feel a light in my chest, and when I ignore it

I cannot be my best, and don’t seem to fit,

When I ignite it , the vibrancies moves me

Dreams and visions , is that they key?

What is this heaviness on my heart?

when I listen to others , something falls apart,

It cuts my vision of looking ahead,

They tell me to stick to the norms instead,

Keep your feet on this ground , is what they say

You are lucky to live another day,

But I don’t want to waste my days in repetition

Supposedly I need everyone else’s permission,

To take on experiences that humble me so,

Feeling full of experience is how I want to go.

Until I learn to escape from my security ,

My dreams will always be there dangling in front of me

Arnold Schwarzenegger – a compilation of some of my favourite quotes.


olympiaArnold Schwarzenegger is an iconic figure in body building, motivation,  entertainment industry, and politics. He is so particular and unique yet he can converse and identify with any person he comes across which also makes him a great politician.He did it all and  has some great insight and I will post some of his famous quotes on here.

“For me life is continuously being hungry. The meaning of life is not to simply exist, to survive, but to move ahead, to go up, to achieve, to conquer”

“Strength does not come from winning.Yo0ur struggles develop your strengths. When you go through hardships and decide not to surrender, that is strength”

“Just remember you can’t climb the ladder of success with your hands in your pockets”

“The future is green energy, sustainability, renewable energy”

“Failure is not an option, everyone has to succeed”

“Help others and give something back. I guarantee you will discover, that while public service improves the lives and the world around you, It’s greatest reward is the enrichment and new meaning it will bring your own life”

“Then resistance that you fight physically in the gym and the resistance that you fight in life can only build a strong character”

“The worse thing that I can be is the same as everybody else, I hate that”

“The mind is the limit. As long as the mind can envision the fact that you can do something, you can, as long as you really believe it 100 percent”

In our society the women that break down barriers are those who ignore limits”

“The last three or four reps is what makes the muscle grow. This area of pain divides the champion from someone else who is not a champion. That’s what most people lack, having the guts to go on and just say they’ll go through the pain no matter what happens”

“Training gives us an outlet for suppressed energies created by stress and thus tones the spirit just as exercise conditions the body”

“What we face may look insurmountable. But I learned something from all those years of training and competing. I learned something from all those sets and reps when I didn’t think I could lift another ounce of weight. What I learned is that we are always stronger than we know”

“Learned helplessness is the giving-up reaction, the quitting response that follows from the belief that whatever you do doesn’t matter”




Retrieved from


Quotes on endurance




Here are a few quotes to keep you grounded. There is no time to fall apart now!


“There is no royal road to anything. One thing at a time, all things in succession . That which grows fast withers rapidly. That which grows slowly endures” – Josiah Gilbert Holand

“Even if you’re on the right track, you’ll get run over if you just sit there.” – Will Rogers

“Luck is the dividend of sweat. The more you sweat, the luckier you get”- Ray Kroc

“When I let go of what I am, I become what I might be” – Lao Tzu

“Whoever loves much, performs much, and can accomplish much, and what is done in love is done well” -Vincent Van Gogh

“The great thing in this world is not so much where you stand, as in what direction you are moving” -Oliver Wendell Holmes

“Either you run the day, or the day runs you” -Jim Rohn

“The difference between a successful person and others is not olack of strength, but lack of will” – Vince Lombardi

“If not us , who? If not now, when? -John F. Kennedy

“Though no one can go back and make a brand new start, anyone can start from now and make a brand new ending” – Carl Bard

“The only way of finding the limits of the possible is by going beyond them into the impossible” – Arthur C. Clarke

“Speak less than you know; have more than you show.”  – William Shakespeare

“The journey of a thousand miles begins with one step.” -Lao Tzu

“An obstacle is often a stepping stone.” – Prescott

“Keep away from people who try to belittle your ambitions. Small people always do that, but the really great makes you feel that you, too, can become great.” – Mark Twain

“I am thankful for all of those who said NO to me. Its because of them I’m doing it myself.” -Albert Einstein

“The only person you are destined to become is the person you decide to be.” -Ralph Waldo Emerson

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you, till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer, never give up then, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn.” -Harriet Beecher Stowe

“Learning is the beginning of wealth. Learning is the beginning of health. Learning is the beginning of spirituality. Searching and learning is where the miracle process all begins.” -Jim Rohn

“In the midst of movement and chaos, keep stillness inside of you.” -Deepak Chopra

“What you thought before has led to every choice you have made, and this adds up to you at this moment. If you want to change who you are physically, mentally, and spiritually, you will have to change what you think.” -Dr. Patrick Gentempo

“Problems are not stop signs, they are guidelines.” -Robert Schuller